three weeks since starting

By: CuddlyMum Mood: don't know Date: 11/27/2007 21:57:51 Music: None

Well I joined a gym for women only. I am hoping the lack of men being present and super fit women will help. I started three weeks ago, the first week I went once, and could only do one circuit before nearly collapsing, the second went twice and this week will be going twice. This week I noticed I got around the circuit and merely felt like I had done a good work out rather than over done it. I figure next week I will add an extra machine or two toward completeing two circuits. I dont expect to complete two circuits till next month, but I figure if I keep going and keep adding a little each time I will eventually be ready. My goal is to get to doing two circuits and the boxing, as suggested by my excersize coach.

Eating wise I am finally getting to a point that I am eating three meals a day instead of 1 or 2. I am also aiming to try to extend this to the 5 small portions a day three to four hours apart sticking to a 1500 cal routine. I did however make an important discovery with this relating to the psychology of dieting. By denying myself constantly I feel guilt when I eat something "wrong" or at the wrong time. This guilt is often what turns me away from being able to stick to things, or to accept myself. As such I am going to allow myself something small each day and take time to enjoy it, ie. three squares of chocolate or 2 marshmellows. I vow not to feel guilty for it. I need to loose weight badly, but if I dont accept my quirks and learn to tame them, they will own me always, and they will become the weakness that makes me fail over and over.

I dont expect to loose a lot before my second weigh and measure, this is a life changing process not a quick fix, much as I would like it to be. More than anything I would love to loose a lot of weight really quick, but I now understand how unrealistic I have been and as such have set too high a goals too soon. My aim now is small steady steps.