starting over

By: marriedmoma Mood: horny Date: 06/19/2009 13:49:11 Music: None

i already lost 63 pounds, down from 239....in the last 7 months.

but, i would like to start fresh.because now that i've already lost a good amount of weight, i keep using it for my excuse as to why i'm not pushing myself to stay on track.

i say "oh, well i lost 63 pounds.that should be enough, so its ok for me to skip a workout, or go out to eat, or drink"...

truth is, it is not enough.i need to be at a healthy weight for my height, which is anywhere from 120-145 pounds.i've already jumped the first hurdle-moving from the obese bmi to an overweight one.

now i need to go from overweight to normal.i started this diary because my husband is my only support, and he's not being very supportive.he is a great guy, but he does not think i am eatting too much, or that i am fat.i clearly am, but i guess love is blind.

so now, i am starting fresh.from this point on, i will forget i ever weighed more than 180 pounds.i start over, and now, as someone who is 180, i am going to begin my weightloss journey.no more excuses about how far i've come, until i reach my new goal.i want to be healthy, and trim, by august.

i honestly have not tried to work out.i've only been watching what i eat, yet i have not been paying attention to how many times a day, or how many portions per bite.that must all change, starting now.

first thing i ate today was icecream,1/2 cup.followed later by a single corn dog.followed later by a serving of crackers.

it should be easy to begin my diet, as i have my portions under control.my issue is that i am still eating junk, and also that i shouldn't be eating junk first thing in the morning.its time to be my own parent, and place hard fast rules on my eatting habits.and also to actually work out when i do.