DATE: 03/27/2008 22:03:25 / MOOD: don't know

I ate pizza today. Do I feel bad about it? No. Does that mean I'm giving up on losing weight? No. I actually worked out for over an hour today. And other than the pizza, I ate celery, oatmeal, brown rice and mushrooms. Besides milk, I only drank water, which is a big plus for me since a pop came with the pizza. I guess I realize that I can't do a diet or deny myself the foods I like off a promise of substantial weight loss if it's not tailored to me and my likings.... well I can, it just makes it harder for me to stick to it.  I'll be back eating oatmeal and working out in the morning. I just have to stay positive and put forth positive for positive to be given back to me. I had to deal with my ex today which put some fear and stress in me and normally, I would've turned that into a pig out session, but all I could think of was empty calories. I believe that I'm really going to be successful this time.

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DATE: 03/26/2008 00:12:21 / MOOD: don't know

Still in the weight loss fight, but I may have possibly had a set back... but from what I've been reading it's not so much a setback. I'm still detoxing, but I was craving something heavier than fruit, veggies and oatmeal. So I nibbled on some spaghetti-o's until I was full. Not a part of the diet I'm on, but at the same time, I ate slow, paid attention to my body and stopped when I was full, so I left half the food in my bowl.  Even though that wasn't in my plan, I don't feel too bad about it because I still managed to exercize some form of self control in my eating. I think that's really what it's all about. Even though I ate something that isn't particularly natural, I controlled my portions. Plus I did stripaerobics, the treadmill, and I made a CD with songs that I like and danced to it for about a half-hour, so I got about an hour of exercize today. I'm getting right back on the detox, though, right after my morning exercize. I like that I break up my exercize throughout the day because I don't get wiped out trying to do everything at once and it keeps me hyper until I crash at night. I gotta stay up another 50 minutes so I don't sleep on my dinner. ttys!

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DATE: 03/24/2008 23:15:15 / MOOD: loosing weight

So here's how I got where I am....

 I was a skinny girl in high school. In fact, I graduated high school weighing 115 lbs. Stress, trauma, depression, and two babies have lead me to being the biggest I have ever been in my life. I've made half-attempts at times to lose weight, only getting bigger with time, but for the first time in my life I'm getting realistic with the situation. So this is how I know I'm gonna be successful.

I've already acclaimated myself to what I used to consider as "nasty-tasting healthy food".  My only other struggle has been fighting cravings for junk food. For far, so good. I've been to stores and past restaurants and have completely stuck to my guns in not buying chocolate or fast food. I'm doing the Fat Smash Diet from Celebrity Fit Club and I'm giving myself weekly weigh-ins just like on the show. I'm doing the detox right now. I've given myself a goal of five pounds for the first week but I just may do better than that.  I've been really good with my eating and I just got my treadmill so I'm adding that along with stripaerobics. I think I did about 2 hours of exercize today and I plan to do at least an hour everyday. It's weird cuz when I weighed myself last night I weight 202, and just 24 hours later, the scale is saying 196. I'm praying it's not a fluke. But either way, I want to be at the lower end of 190 by Sunday. I'll update then.

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