DATE: 04/22/2010 05:37:17 / MOOD: disappointed

it's time to start. Start again, i gotta add. i already started once, at the beginning of this year. after 2 months i was well on my way to my weight loss goal. then i moved, started working at my current job, and everything fell into pieces.

two main reasons really, on one hand i was simply unhappy, living in temporary accomodation that i really didn't like, knowing that for a couple of months i will only have the chance to see my lovely guy once every few weeks, doing a job i didn't really want to do, i just took it for financial reasons. on the other hand a job in which i am surrounded by food and handling it many times a day, having access to a lot of leftover snacks, often either cakes or fatty, high-calory products. and i snapped, i started snacking, then munching, and now i am stuffing my face again, to tell it as it is. i got my chocolate and sugar cravings again, which is killing me. i keep promising myself - only one more day of this, and tomorrow i will get back to my diet.

in the meantime i regained almost everything i lost, and as it stands, i am on 64.5 kg. here comes the third, additinal reason of my failure. having almost gone back to the starting point has knocked me off my feet, i got so depressed and unhappy with myself, i just couldn't find the strength to get back on track. and i started eating to improve my mood... but as we know, eating because of stress makes people happy for a bit, and then makes them feel even worse cause they lost to the food again.

i really want to do this. i want to be slim, look good, feel great. i found this website and i thought that perhaps if i find some people who know and understand how i feel and they will help me with some mental support, perhaps i can really start it and FINISH it this time.

please, help me loose my wobbly bits!

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