DATE: 05/09/2007 13:09:55 / MOOD: don't know
I just had a giant m&m cookie. booo. but now I am drinking a caffiene free diet soda. yay! Sad to say thats my breakfast, hopefully lunch will be better.
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DATE: 05/07/2007 23:19:49 / MOOD: gaining weight
It seems like I say it to myself every day... "Loosing weight is such a simple thing, why are you not doing it?". It really is simple, exercise and bypass some bad foods. That's the easy peasy formula. So why is it that whenever the idea of cheeseburgers for dinner or the temptation of a big box of cookies enters my mind, that sensible concept steps out? I mean, seriously, it just becomes absent. Not to mention food makes me so briefly happy that my boyfriends favorite thing to do is cook yummy things.
This is not how i want to live... I was healthy once which makes this unhealthy lifestyle feel all the more sloppy, dirty, tired, and all around just not worth it. I weigh more than I ever have. We just went to the aquarium and there were so many potentially humurous and joyful pictures to be taken, but when I looked at them all I saw was the fat that framed my face, how large my tummy actually was, and how awkward my pants looked on me. It wasn't something I recognised.
So here I am, another attempt to bring myself back to the physical person I see in my mind, not in the mirror or bad camping pictures. Good luck to me!
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